MisSinG U

2006-05-30T01:40:00.000-07:00

haha now is 1am smth nor.. but i blogging 29th de thingy nahx... hmm.. ytd went out with kor kor.. actually didn;t intend to go out de.. but edward kor called ma.. haha.. so we met up at GV after my tuition... then went to watch "Over-the-Hedge"..haha.. funny sia.. kor kor say i very cartoon when i watch the movie.. duh~~ hey tat one natural reaction la.. si kor.. haha.. hmm.. wah lao.. in the cinema got a group of teenagers damn noisy.. feel lik smacking them.. show haven start also noisy.. show start le also noisy.. show finish even more noisy.. duh~~ wanna take the pop corn throw at them la.. haha..

hmm.. after movie i took kor to eat something gd lo.. then when wanna go to cwp.. saw Nic kor with weiyoong.. haha...eh.. when reach le we go walk walk lo.. first to my book store which i bought another two books... hehe..building up my collection.. then we go to courts look at mp3s nah.. after tat i wanna go uncle tibits buy drinks.. i was talking happily.. but half way saw ken.. i smiled.. actually wan continue to talk.. then when i turn i saw the M1 gals.. ji tao sian diao.. duh~~ faster buy le drink then we go carpark chat chat le nor.. until 9.30 lik tat then we go home le.. haha..

hiaz..so sian.. almost everyone got stead le.. but i still cannot find someone i really lik or wan to lik.. any gd looking and nice guys? haha.. k nahx.. i too greedy le.. but..those i lik de don lik me.. and to those i don lik is vice versa... and those who dunno me but tell me they lik me de is all crap de la i think.. hiaz.. juz lik me and jeff.. if i accept those guys.. we'll juz end up in the same conclusion.. i prefer a better ending de ba i suppose.. maybe not nv ending... but at least last abit longer ma.. haha...jkjk la..well.. so where is Mr Right?... or Mr Half-Right....?

if u all r juz finding a playmate.. pls don come to me... go to childcare centre ..u all might get one there...

i need someone who really hav feelings for me.. those who do hav but after awhile the feelings will be lik a puff of smoke.."PUFF~~!!" and disappear dunno where de.. also pls don come near me.. coz u might suffer from a very sharp tongue here...

2006-05-29T01:10:00.000-07:00

now 1 am sia.. hmmm i not sleepy yet leh.. so.. here goes.. ytd which is the 28th ..slp until 12 .30 sia.. haha.. raining heavily... gd to slp... then went out at 2pm.. go find sinyi ..yiai and chia wei... wah when reach le i can see sinyi de face lik charcoal lik tat.. haha.. kai kai keep make sinyi angry sia.. haha.. then after tat charista cry..coz sinyi ask her she wan to eat wat ... but she dunno wat she wan... so cry .. ah dui~~ too many tears also cannot lik tat waste de ah.. haha.. muz smile more and cry less ah gal.. hmm.. charista and kai kai is sinyi de newphew and niece.. so always take them out.. hehe... my own nieces and newphews dunno at which corner of singapore.. seldom see each other de.. haha..

hmm after tat we go arcade lo.. bring kai kai and charista all go play..hehe... i also got play.. =p play half way then their mother come bring them home le.. so me, sinyi and yiai cum chia wei go yoshinoya eat lo.. crap alot sia.. tml chiawei having chi O Level paper.. still sitting there eating with us.. haha..

then later we go sinyi hse.. haha.. jing jing also there ah... hmm.. next destination is pool centre at woodland centre liao.. haha.. the aunties and uncle in-charge all remember who i am.. i abit shock sia.. haha... but happy la.. hehe... saw gavin also.. haha.. play half way .. weihong walk in.. somemore took the table beside us.. haha.. then we play together lo.. boon kiat and li fen also got come.. hehe...

finish playing pool le.. me and sinyi went back to cwp.. shop abit.. i bought two tops.. haha.. and two storybooks frm the book store.. actually got alot of books wanna buy.. but cannot afford.. maybe next time ba.. haha.. eh.. we also went to shop for bday present.. this mth alot ppl bday... haha... gonna bankrupt le.. somemore this mth mum nv give me pocket money de.. coz she holiday..

afterwhich we met up with jingkai daddy.. he seem sad sad de.. so we cheer him up lo.. after eating we started to walk home.. we always do de.. first reach daddy home then reach sinyi.. then i take taxi home.. haha... while walking out of cwp saw jeffrey.. haha..

*yawn*.. now tired le.. haha.. gonna go to bed le.. byebye~~

2006-05-26T20:40:00.000-07:00

hhaha.. ytd night tok to edword kor kor on phone sia.. quite a while nv tok to him le.. hehe.. hmm ..maybe mon meet him out for a drink..haha..

today nth special lo.. woke up then crap with sista.. try out the clothes she bought.. got one white colour very nice with lace de i can wear.. haha.. so nice.. so we can share lo... hmm.. then after tat she told me elna selling her ipod nano.. i wanna but from her nor.. haha.. hmm...this time sis pay.. hehe.. =p

after tat go for tuition.. then now come back home blog lo.. haha.. ah dui.. ytd make mr jimmy angry sia.. haha.. sry la.. don be lik a boi boi throw tantrum nah.. haha... ^^

2006-05-24T17:00:00.000-07:00

ytd my sense of humor muz be overwhelming.. alan and yiai laugh until peng liao lo talking to me...haha..anyway my sister came back from Dubai today..bought back alot ice cream for me ah.. ah dui .. tat time dad bought alot ice cream from a sale too.. wah.. i si liao.. everyday stuck at home then still got ice cream filling my freezer waiting for me to eat... luckily daddy loves ice cream and ate up all.. now sis bought back so many.. ah dui~~ juz nnow ate one.. wah lao.. the ice cream taste better than dad bought back de.. haha.. i si le.. fei si le...

haha we two sot leh.. haha.. dancing waltz at her room.. two sot pluck gals doing sot pluck things.. hehe...^^ ah dui~~ she bought alot new clothes nor~~ i don hav !!! ..hmph~~ haha but nvm.. i ask her buy tat nice nice de bikini for me.. hehe.. wah lao she got three sets sia.. so now we share share lo... haha...but she gonna buy another colour de bikini for me... hehe *winks*

i wan jian fei la.. then sista buy de clothes i can wear.. sian lo.. now the nice nice clothes she bought i cannot wear...hmph...~!! i need to slim down... haha.. but nvm i taller than her.. hehe.. =p

she intro me one very shuai ge nor.. meixiu met this passenger on board ma...then they were talking abt their son.. then sister talk abt me lo.. then they realise both of us is of the same age.. then the passenger give his son email to my sis...ask her give me.. say maybe me and his son can be friends..... haha.. but sis say the boy very handsome lo...haha.. hmm..but i haven add him..hmm..

this morning saw guo wei online.. AT LAST.. haha.. i tot he disappear where liao sia... he internet spoil ..poorthingy.. haha.. eh eh.. his gf very pretty sia.. sweet sweet de.. haha.. i add jimmy in msn also.. ytd wan add but server down so cannot add.. ah dui we crap alot sia.. haha.. he say next time if got bike at cwp then he take me tou feng.. haha...ah dui i wan live longer de.. get ur licence first la~~!! haha.. or maybe i live through tat bike ride but end up getting murder by his gf.. haha... ^^

hmm now mum come back le.. sure gonna cook nice nice food for me to eat... ah dui~~ i love food.. but i hav to slim down la~~ ... sob sob.. eye swollen.. so ugly... mum say i "fa re" le... sob sob...

hmm.. javier boi boi come my hse nor.. haha so cute.. climb everywhere.. then don wan go home.. his grandma come fetch him ..he faster get the key wanna lock the door.. haha.. cute sia..

2006-05-23T12:42:00.000-07:00

every one talk abt love to me.. but to me.. it seems nth.. becoz i noe they don love me.. infactuation ...maybe.. but definitely not love.. if tats the case.. i already love alot ppl liao lo... is it really such an easy thing tell tell ppl u love them?... to me is no... even if i do said it in the past.. i think i'm deciving my stead and myself... becoz i noe .. love is not a simple thing.. i don even noe whether it exist anot.. but if ppl can tell me they love me so easily .. i think its a bluff.. maybe they think they do.. but in truth.. they do not...

i dunno how to convince u tat u don love me.. but i noe u don.. when time passes.. u will realise it de... pls don wait...

2006-05-22T18:50:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry i had to break ur heart.. i really don mean it.. i noe it doesn't feels gd.. but i hav no choice.. i'm sure there is better gals out there waiting for you.. sorry... hope we r still friends... sry....

2006-05-22T07:07:00.000-07:00

1. You can only say YES or NO.
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone comments and asks!

1. Taken a picture naked? NO.
2. Painted your room? YES.
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? NO.
4. Drove a car? NO.
5. Danced in front of your mirror? YES.
6. Had a crush? YES.
7. Been dumped? NO.
8. Stole money from friend? NO.
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? NO.
10. Been in a fist fight? YES.
11. Snuck out of your house? YES.
12. Had feelings for someone who didn鈥檛 have them back? YES.
13. Been arrested? YES.
14. Made out with a stranger? NO.
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? YES.
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? YES.
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? NO.
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? YES.
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? YES.
20. Seen someone die? NO.
21. Been on a plane? YES.
22. Kissed a picture? YES.
23. Slept in until 3PM? YES.
24. Love or miss someone right now? NO.
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? YES.
26. Made a snow angel? NO.
27. Played dress up? YES.
28. Cheated while playing a game? NO.
29. Been lonely? YES.
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? YES.
31. Been to a club? NO.
32. Felt an earthquake? NO.
33. Touched a snake? NO.
34. Ran a red light? YES.
35. Been suspended from school? NO.
36. Had detention? YES.
37. Been in a car accident? NO.
38. Hated the way you look? NO.
39. Witnessed a crime? YES.
40. Pole danced? NO.
41. Been lost? YES.
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? YES.
43. Felt like dying? NO.
44. Cried yourself to sleep? YES.
45. Sang karaoke? YES.
46. Sucked your thumb? YES.
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn鈥檛? YES.
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? NO.
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? NO.
50. Kissed in the rain? NO.
51. Sing in the shower? YES.
52. Made love in a park? NO.
53. Had a dream that you married someone? NO.
54. Glued your hand to something? YES.
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? NO.
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? NO.
57. Been a cheerleader? YES.
58. Sat on a roof top? NO.
59. Didn鈥檛 take a shower for a week? NO.
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? YES.
61. Played chicken? NO.
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? NO.
63. Been told you鈥檙e hot by a complete stranger? YES.
64. Broken a bone? YES.
65. Been easily amused? YES.
66. Laugh so hard you cry? YES.
67. Mooned/flashed someone? ???
68. Cheated on a test? YES.
69. Forgotten someone鈥檚 name? YES.
70. Slept naked? NO.
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? NO.
72. Performed on stage? YES.
73. Blacked out from drinking? NO.
74. Played a prank on someone? YES.
75. Gone to a late night movie? NO.
76. Made love to anything not human? NO.
77. Failed a class? NO.
78. Choked on something you鈥檙e not supposed to eat? NO.
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? NO.
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? NO.
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? NO.
82. Thrown strange objects? NO.
83. Felt like killing someone? NO.
84. Thought about running away? YES.
85. Ran away? YES.
86. Did drugs? NO.
87. Had detention and not attend it? YES.
88. Dumped anyone? YES.
89. Made a parent cry? YES.
90. Cried over someone? YES.
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? NO.
92. Dated someone more than once? YES.
93. Have/had a dog? NO.
94. Own an instrument? NO.
95. Been in a band? NO.
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? NO.
97. Broken a cd? YES.
98. Shot a gun? NO.
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? NO.
100. Written a love letter? NO.

2006-05-21T23:57:00.000-07:00

hehe..today woke up at 11am leh...haha.. watch tv " shao nian wang fei hong".. nice show... hmm..after tat prepare to go out with sinyi le lo.. meet her at arcade.. saw jimmy and moh heng they all.. hmmm... after tat me and sinyi go eat le lo...when we come back eric crap alot la.. haha.. after tat me and sinyi wanna go party world.. but no rooms until 6pm.. *sian diao*... so we went to pay my phone bills.. and sat at civic de mac lo chat lo... saw travis de stead too nor.. but nv see travis leh.. hmm...

after tat we decide to go walk around cwp see got wat thing to do lo.. before we cross the road to cwp from civic.. jimmy called my name lo.. then ask me go where.. duh~~ haha.. then he say go sing K-box coz i say party world no place le.. so i split up with sinyi coz she don mix with them de nor.. but end up nv go le.. haha.. then i meet sinyi back lo... but before tat i walk with jimmy they all lo.. then nv tok much.. so moh heng say i very ke lian.. haha.. i was lik " duh~~ at last someone notice i bored le ..haha"...then after tat jimmy crap with me.. ah dui.. funny nor.. somemore moh heng and jimmy lik to copy me tok lo.. duh~~

spilt with with moh heng they all le.. then go take neo-prints with sinyi.. hehe.. card de no.. but we both don look really gd leh.. duh~~ nvm la.. we noe we look gd can le =x haha.. jkjk....

we waiting for 6.30 to come.. coz meet jingkai daddy at 6.30 for dinner.. hehe... today saw seng hong kor nor~~~ outside arcade... i was so enthu.. then shout his name very loud... pai seh sia....
after jing kai came.. we went to mos burger then go arcade play house of the dead 4... saw seng hong kor again.. but he change his clothes liao.. hehe... before meet jingkai.. he wear all while.. after tat when see him again.. he wear black.. ^^

then then... we walk around cwp lo.. i went to the bookstore again.. see got new books for me to buy anot.. alot nor~~!!! haha.. i so happy.. but onli bought three.. coz don dare let sinyi and daddy wait too long... hmm.. daddy keep say i today sot.. keep wink at him.. whaha.. today really sot le... haha but i lik winking *winks* ^^ daddy ke lian... hehe =p

after tat walk home with sinyi and jk daddy le lo...haha.. when daddy split up with us le.. i hav to kiss him coz i owe him one ma.. at first he lik very scare.. but after he stand there let me kiss le lo..hahah... y guys so funny de.. always dare me to kiss them but in the end they r the one who don dare.. haha.. hey.. don dare me lo.. i dare de.. kiss onli ma.. no big deal =p.....

hmm.. me and sinyi continue to walk and tok lo.. then stop at the fitness corner.. chat chat until 9.30 lik tat... then walk again to the bus stop.. but sat there.. and started to tok again.. whaha... ai ya.. every week onli see once...so alot of things to tok.. hehe...

then yong fa called my hp ma.. so we chat lo.. sinyi keep di siao.. duh~~ they tag team le la.. i wanna try to match make them leh.. but they don wan.. haha....i took taxi home lo after tat...hmm.. got home le.. bath le.. i online lo.. tok to sinyi ..alan and weihong... funny lo.. they add the wrong alan into the conversation.. hehe... while chatting online with sinyi they all.. i also chat with yong fa on phone.. hmm.. haha.. until his sergeant came to scold him le wor.. hmm.. sorry nor~~ anyway.. he end up being my gan lao gong le.. eh.. nv had gan lao gong before.. this time first time.. haha...

after tat i called daddy jk chat.. but got scolding by my mum.. so hang up le...

hmm.. gan lao gong?.. hmm.. sounds nice.. haha... but... ^^

2006-05-20T11:55:00.000-07:00

hmm.. woke up at 7.40 today.. got tuition at 8 ma.. after tuition went back home lo.. then wait for 12.30 then go for cls again until 5pm.. eh...before tat alvin and his friend called me lo.. di siao me sia.. ah dui.. then we agreeed to meet for pool after my tuition... hmm

meet them at mrt station lo.. then we took shuttle bus to OCC.. played pool and bowling.. then after tat go home le.. hehe..

sorry i couldn't accept.. its better tat way.. there will not be any disappointment....

i'm striving to stay happy and be satisfied having books to accompany onli.. and i will keep striving to be happy nor~~ ^^

sometime my mind will drift to memories.. hmm.. be it friends or relationship..be it gd or bad.. hiaz.. of course think of bad de things not gd lo.. but bad de memories tends to come out more often.. or maybe not bad la.. juz sad de memories...or memories tat will make me sad... hmm..

i hav to endure these few months.. cannot play too much... even if i got lots of time... hmm.. as long as i get to poly.. i will hav a life tat i wan.. the kind of ppl i want to noe... and find a guy who is true to me.. i don wanna to hav a bf.. but end up having ex le... they r juz having fun with me.. hiaz...

even sinyi also agree tat so far we both met de r mostly jerks lo.. hmm... i wanna someone who understands me.. who will mend my brokenheart... whom i will nv need to say break up with...and who will nv say break up to me.. and love me for who i am... i'm waiting..

i'm not a person who will giv 100% of my time to bf [ tried it once..but it don work]].. i hav my life to live too...although i no longer remember how to be a caring gf.. but i'll learn to be one when the right guy comes along...i wanna someone who can mix with my friends.. and whom friends i can mix with...juz lik my sis is with her fiance...

i wanted to be serious in relationship.. but i wasn't given a chance...not with js.. not with jeff.. js is becoz he had a change of heart.. well jeff.. i dunno wat really happened either... hmmm.. but towards jeff i'm abit off course.. becoz i dunno how to be a gd gf anymore... towards js... well.. tats not up to me.. i couldn't force him to lik me.. so no choice..

i will not go into a relationship unless i do really lik tat person... but it doesn't seem to work ... the other party muz also return my feeling de ma... hiaz... once asked myself.." i can stead with anyone le lo... no need to hav real feelings de ma.. others can do it.. y can't i?.."... well the ans is.. i juz couldn't.. its juz me.. i need feelings to be in a relationship...and tats is y i'm hurt easily...hiaz...

i'm going back to the time when i broke up with js... immune...trying to stay happy and alive.. [ at least this time i succeed in being happy at times =) ]

my onli chance of education is in poly.. my onli future is also in poly...even though i disappoint myself once in last yr.. i'll nv repeat my mistake twice...i'll get my cert... i'll get my job..i'll get my guy( well..eventually ^^ )....

i wanted to be serious.. i'm giving myself chance in education... i'll make the way... but when its time for tat "someone" to appear( dunno who will tat " someone" be.. maybe ten yrs later then he appear leh?... haha...) .. i hope he gives me a chance to learn....i'm serious.. =)

until i get my satisfied Os result... i'm not suitable for a relationship... as i've said..everything for my future will be in poly... hmm....

wants
- satisfied Os cert
- diploma cert
- be an air stewardess lik my sister
- someone who i can be with for my life...

2006-05-19T21:02:00.000-07:00

eh eh~~ hmm... today sot leh.. afternoon stuck myself in room for 4 hrs do A math.. whaha.. yao "pei yang gan qing " ma... hehe..

ytd funny lo.. sista forgot bring her retainer with her for her trip..then ask me bring it over to airport for her wor.. duh~~ nth to blog leh.. so sian... haha..

hmm.. muz k books.. i need to go poly.. i can't stand ppl asking me where am i now.. then i ans " i'm retaking Os..." ..somemore had to do it with a smiley face.. duh~~

G boyz very shuai nor...^^

everyday relax.. no dress up.. no make up.. hehe.. with my specs.. hairband on my hair.. juz lik the old meiyi.. hmm...no go out no worries... ^^

muz jian fei~~!!! hmm..

2006-05-17T21:00:00.000-07:00

sian.. these two days sick~~ ke lian nor.. juz now slept the whole afternoon.. hehe... now still abit half dead... ah dui~~

everyday so boring sia.. nth to do.. ytd woke up by sis.. she juz came back frm KL turn around.. so when she came back ..the two of us when to eat breakfast cum lunch lo.. haha.. after tat yiai called me to pei her go northpoint buy things.. i had to go off by 5 lo.. coz got tuition.. hmm..

today even more borning.. ytd was sneezing the whole night so very late then slp.. i woke up in the afternoon today.. then after a while.. ate medicine then slp back again.. sian.. wan to die liao.. haha.. now abit better liao.. but still half dead lo...

wanna faster finish Os.. then can go strive for my diploma.. then can ba an air stewardess lik my sister.. hmmm ^^

sorry had to be so straight forward.. i don wanna u waste ur time on me.. =)

2006-05-15T07:02:00.000-07:00

hehe..today woke up by sis.. haha.. ask me bring her to wld centre to buy the jeans lo.. cheap ma.. hmm.. met up with her at northpoint coz after she woke me up she went out with her bf le.. well.. we met up to hav luch first then go wld centre le lo.. actually she onli wanted to one pair of jeans ma... end up with another one too.. haha.. funny.. after tat we took 912 back to cwp... we went to lib first to return books lo... then sat there read abit..enjoy the air con.. keke... after going to lib we went to walk around cwp lo.. try on clothes and bought some too.. ^^ of course i pay for myself de lo =( ...haha..

so happy nor.. we went into the book store at fourth floor.. they r selling some novels at one dollar per book.. so we went inside to see... i had 8 new story books with me when i went out of the shop.. so happy...then went to chamelon to buy my hair band...

i always wanted to own the story books i read... but everytime i borrow frm lib.. i had to return.. heart pain ah.. i wanted all of them so much... today so happy... haha.. i'm gonna wrap up the 8 new books and keep them up on my book shelf( after i hav read them of course ^^).. hehe... after tat went home le nor...

hmm.. went for tuition at 6.30.. haha.. pradeep they all were there.. so i was wondering y they come for math lesson.. in the end they told me is english lesson today.. duh~~~ i so ps lo.. coz i keep insisting today is math... but end up it is not... when i ask teacher.. she told me she intent to let me do math while they do english.. ah dui... haha...

2006-05-14T19:00:00.000-07:00

ytd was tiring nor.. morning woke up at 8.. went to tuition at 8.30 ... came back at 10.. then go tuition again at 12.30 until 5.. ah dui.. *yawn*...

today woke up late nor.. 12.30 then woke up... then after tat go meet sinyi and yiai at cwp nor.. after tat yiai go home le.. me and sinyi nth to do..had a tiff.. so gone back home too.. hiaz.. anyway luckily went back home early.. coz mum cook curry nor.. my favourite..^^

hmm.. think my wish is coming true.. these few times i go out nv see jeffrey le.. the lesser i see him.. i think better it will be for me ba.. hiaz...

2006-05-12T21:40:00.000-07:00

Sickness and sorrow
come to us all
But through it we grow
we learn to stand tall
For trouble is part
the parcel of life
No man can grow
without struggle and strive
The more we endure
with paitience and grace
The stronger we grow
the more we can face
And the more we can face
the greater our love
And the greater out love
we r consious of the pain and sorrow
in lives everywhere
So it is through trouble
that we learn how to share....

2006-05-11T16:50:00.000-07:00

warm day... hmm.. nice dreams ytd night.. anyway.. today woke at 8am.. went to tuition at 8.30.. until 10.. then went home again to dress up go meet kevin kor nor... met up with him at abt 11.30.. went to buy movie tickets first..haha.. watching "Poseidon" nor~~!! happy...^^ hmm.. after tat we went to eat our breakfast cum lunch.. then go lib lo.. coz the movie start at 1.15pm.. so hav to find smth to do ma.. haha...

saw weili and kaixin they all while walking past kfc.. sarah too..she waiting for huihui at the cinema.. haha.. horhor.. huihui bad bad gal... haha.. same as my kor "pon" lecture... hehe...after movie then we go home le.. haha..later gonna go for tuition again.. duh~~ with the cls de.. i don lik to hav tuition with cls de.. hmm...

"Poseidon" is quite gd.. hmm... although it is quite similar to "Titanic" tat the cruise sank..but i suppose there r more things to learn frm this show than "Titanic".. hmm.. wits and quick mind to survive.. things such as the structure of boat.. abit of physics here and there... one more diff was tat " Titanic " hit an ice-berg..while " Poseidon " met a road wave...looks lik tsunami? hmm.. but it was being described as a "road wave"...hmm..and i didn't noe it was pressure tat opens the entrance to the other tanks tat kept the ship afloat... interesting~~

anyway Dilion in the show is gd looking.. haha...^^ i lik his eyes...

[[ the one who seeks to live..shall survive... ]]
[[ nv wait for things to happen... be the one to make it happen... ]]

2006-05-10T20:54:00.000-07:00

eh oh.. woke up at 8 am today.. met up with mr yeo in sch nor.. haha.. feel so awkard when i walked in...hmm.. saw zhihong nor~~!! haha.. he is still the same.. no change de... saw zhiming also.. haha.. after tat me and mr yeo met up with yiai.. went for lunch in pizza hut... duh~~ we talk abt jeff nor.. mr yeo and yiai keep say i she bu de~~~~duh~~ haha.. aiya...dunno la.. don care also...

haha.. after eating me and yiai separate with mr yeo le...he went to buy grocery while we went to see cosmetics le nor... got 20% discount.. hehe... hmm.. yiai bought ZA de eyeliner and loreal compact powder.. and i bought ZA concealer...eyeshadow and loreal compact powder.. haha..hmm.. after tat we went to civic ..coz i wanna return story books.. then we went to look at earings... i bought a pair.. hehe...

next.. we took bus to woodland centre to go buy my jeans.. hehe.. my old jeans baggy baggy le.. not nice le.. after buying jeans then go home le nor..

ah dui~~ reach home le.. mum give me face sia.. coz she don lik i go reborn hair.. duh~~ no choice le lo... i reborn already =p

i wan watch "Poseidon" ~~!!! ..but no one interested to watch tat show leh.. duh~~

2006-05-09T20:53:00.000-07:00

today woke up early in the morning.. very moody leh.. dunno y... hmm.. went to raffles place find Elna get my cheque... after which i went for tuition.. hiaz.. still sian sian de.. teacher tok to me i onli "mm".."yes".."ok"..these three respone.. usually i jump at any chance to talk de leh.. duh~~ after tuition i went home to bath.. then go reborn hair nor... now headache.. sian.. gonna go slp early today after i blog.. tml i still got to go back marsiling sec meet mr yeo coz i wanna him teach me math...

my mind is blank again today.. plus a very dull throbe... well... head throbbing is a bad thing.. but mind blank blank is gd or bad i dunno... hmm..

"sometimes" is a nice song..suit me quite well now.. last time heard it while passing CD shop.. so went home to download.. hmm.. i lik rene and bee blog de song also.. =)

hope tat next time i go out i don see him anymore.. the more i see him the more miserable i am...not becoz i don lik him... the prob is i lik him.. tats y i being so damn miserable... but even a person with a blind heart will noe tat me and him is totally impossible... juz lik it has been in the past...

trying to live my life as per normal.. proves to be quite hard.. everything around me seem so uninteresting now..hmm...sis say eating chocolates will make ppl happy.. said its scienctifically proven.. well.. she bought bars and bars of chocolate back from Zurich... and i finish them all.. but i didn't seem to be any much happier than i was when the day i broke up.. duh~~

2006-05-08T23:35:00.000-07:00

duh~~ study study nor.. sad or no sad.. still muz live my life.. still hav my own path to continue and finish.. hmm... tml going CBD get my pay nor..my cheaque with Elna.. then hav to go bank..afterwhich going for tuition....then go reborn hair nor..if tired then wed go reborn lo..~~!!! yea ^^

ah dui~~ sista yiai don worry nor.. the decisions i made is not because u all influence de.. haha.. i judge things myself.. those things tat has been said.. i don believe....whether it really happen anot..its all hear-say right?.. not to worry not to worry...anyway thanks for telling me nor .. haha.. sista sinyi onli hint nia leh.. make me think until my brain gonna burst liao.. luckily u saved me la.. haha.. muackz...

i wanna go buy jeans le..yea yea.. tat day go cwp didn't hav the one i lik.. sianz.. onli orchard got..

2006-05-08T13:35:00.000-07:00

hav to study.. trying to make myself think of onli my studies.. but i couldn't do it.. he keep popping up in my mind.. memories keep popping out as images.. hiax...though memories r little...but they kept replaying...i feel lik wanting to understand him.. wat kind of person he is... becoz i realli dunno...everything abt him is marked as " UNCERTAIN " other than he don lik me..i'm quite certain abt tat...

2006-05-08T06:43:00.000-07:00

tired tired now.. do math do until brain gonna burst le.. almost everyday tution nor.. tml will be even busier.. hmmm..

2006-05-08T02:28:00.000-07:00

[[ Lyrics for blog de song - Sometimes ]]

you tell me you’re in love with me
like you can’t take your pretty eyes away from me
it’s not that i don’t want to stay
but every time you come too close
i move away
i wanna believe in everything that you say
’cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me
move slow
there’s things about me
you just have to know
sometimes i run
sometimes i hide
sometimes i’m scared of you
but all i really want is to hold you tight
treat you right
be with you day and night
baby all i need is time
i don’t wanna be so shy..
every time that i’m alone
i wonder why
hope that you will wait for me
you’ll see that
you’re the only one for me
i wanna believe in everything that you say
’cause it sounds so good
but if you really want me
move slow
there’s things about me
you just have to know
sometimes i run(sometimes)sometimes i hide
sometimes i’m scared of you
but all i really want is to hold you tight
treat you right
be with you day and night
all i really want is to hold you tight
treat you right
be with you day and night
baby all i need is time
just hang around and you’ll see
there’s nowhere i’d rather be
if you love me trust in me
the way that i trust in you

2006-05-07T23:23:00.000-07:00

can onli go out once a week.. so today is the day lo.. haha.. meet up with debbie and sinyi first.. we walk around cwp...then saw tan xinyi...after tat saw jimmy... i say hi to him.. he lik abit gong gong de leh.. haha... after tat me,debbie,sinyi and xinyi when to arcade played house of dead.. go take neoprints.. haha... after neoprint met up with jingkai daddy.. he accompany us walk walk...pei us go to party world then went home/pat tor le.. he onli send us till 6th floor then go off le...

well.. we open up a room.. actually shld be a small de room.. but no small de so they gave us medium de.. big seh.. nv go in before.. haha...at first was sing sing onli lo.. not very active.. after tat dunno y we started to jump up and down liao..and blast the music de lo.. whaha.. sot sot de...

outside the party world saw jimmy de friend nor...when i walk past him he said smth to a gal who is his friend..." this one jeffrey de ex"..sian diao~~then look at me as though i got something written on my forehead....hmph... i don lik ppl calling me jeff de ex lo.. i don lik tat name.. duh~~.. i got name de.. i am meiyi... hmmm....

sinyi and me very cold.. so always go outside a while.. chat abit.. then go back.. ah dui~~ chat half way saw jeffrey walk out frm the lift with his friend..hmm..i dress till very "nan kan" nor... haha.. always go out will see him de leh.. dunno y.. hmm.. woodland too small liao.. anyway.. me,sinyi and xinyi were always running up and down... so keep see jeffrey and jimmy they all.. haha..

hmm..then after tat rene came to join us.. after singing we went to civic de mac eat...actually is onli serene eat.. me and debbie nv eat...haha.. finish eating le ..rene go back find chuan they all le lo... me and debbie went to get our dinner take-aways then sat outside cwp there eat and chat...
abt 9.30 lik tat then go home.. hmmm...

i dunno wat to think when i see him.. i onli noe i miss him...hiax...everytime i see him.. my brain juz sort of stop functioning properly.. duh~~

2006-05-07T00:58:00.000-07:00

hmm.. its near to one o'clock now and i couldn't slp.. juz finish watching the election results... my mind..dunno say shld be blank or too much things in my head tat i dunno wat i'm thinking..life in tuition is well..getting better at least... at first when i went back i was very out of place.. since i was there so long le.. my juniors all noe me.. hmm..except for this yr sec four batch de gals..
they r damn quiet.. ah dui~~ lik zombies.. don smile don tok.. everytime A-math lesson they juz come in.. do the work given then go home.. so unlike my batch de.. last year we had our fun and at the same time work.. we r a very responsive cls... haha.. when ever got special days coming along .. me and bao xin always organise smth.. then after tat huijia they all came to our cls.. we always plan things togther.. frm the past since pri sch baoxin and me is always the " zu mou".. organise little party in cls.. presents for teachers..

thinking of my tuition yrs with my friends.. they r so fun.. so nice.. we always bicker.. me and baoxin is the noisiest.. haha.. but we had fun though.. the onli thing tat is diff btw me and my batch was tat..tat yr in sec four.. i chose to give up study becoz of certain foolish thing..
we were together for at least 6 yrs.. some is 10yrs... some is 8yr...some 1 or 2 also got... most r 6 yrs... haha.. i miss them all.. miss they way we play.. they way we compete in maths... they way we were when i was still gd in my studies.. hiaz...

frm pri 5.. to sec four... we were together..they were great... even though we seldom contact now.. but i noe.. they r still great...=)
hmm.. pri 1 to 4 i was with junsheng onli.. we didn't join the cls coz we stayed near each other but far frm Mrs Lee de place... i onli wish we didn't lik each other and juz continue our friendship... we had fun in cls when we were small too.. and when he joined back during sec 2.. we played in cls and everything.. haha.. he and shan xiong always tease me.. hmm...

not onli my friends in tuition i miss.. i miss my sch friends too.. and of course my best bickering partner, Alan.. haha... miss Sec three camp.. miss the time when i had a crush on zhihong.. tats was the funniest part.. until now some ppl still remember i lik zhihong... haha... well.. that was quite the past.. not that i don lik him anymore.. juz tat he becomes someone i can keep in my heart onli.. to pursue is a waste of time.. haha... to zhihong is lik tat.. to junsheng is the same...

thinking abt camps.. sec one i got one too... haha.. Fun & Fitness camp... duh~~ sound so nice.. but its for overweight students de la.. haha.. when i was in sec one.. i look lik a ball.. can roll around de... still remember some gals was in the bath room bathing then in the end got lock inside.. coz our sch toilets door hav own auto security lock in the night.. haha.. ah dui~~ so funny...
for Sec three was great.. great until i dunno wat to say.. haha...

and now.. i'm retaking Os.. to catch back wat i've let loose last yr... trying to get use to the new batch of sec fours.. some of us were friends.. but they r all in sci cls.. which is onli once a week.. hmm...

some ppl tell me.. he is gd...some ppl tell me he is bad... i dunno wat to listen.. so i choose not to listen and decide on my own.. i wun say he is bad or gd.. but after tat day he seem abit "don care" attitude towards me.. well.. i did ask him whether he still had feelings for me anot.. but he chose not to reply.. tat was fairly obvious le right..? although i really don wish to think so.. but i'll nv let myself get hurt again lik it happened before...i'll nv wait for a person lik a fool to tell me straight in the face tat they do not lik me anymore.. it happen once.. it will nv happen again...so i chose to let go...

i do lik him quite alot for a person i've met onli a few days...going on relationship so quickly isn't my way of things... i wasn't quite thinking tat day i suppose ba... but he's a nice guy.. but not the guy for me..nor am i the gal for him.. i'm not a gal with freedom.. i couldn't accompany him much...

i'm not a "xiao nu ren"..and i'll nv be one...its juz in my bones..
i do lik him.. i really do.. but no choice.. i didn't feel it frm him.. he don lik me enough.. and i think i don lik him enough too..
well.. he took the break up better than i do.. so i suppose i don hav to worry abt him.... hope everything goes well for him.. hopes r everywhere... its juz whether he catches it anot... if he chose to let go.. no one can help him...

watashiwa anada ski-des..da tei.. watashi kimi-noh wakaranei desu...

i'll always remember how i met him.. and the little memories we had..

2006-05-05T21:58:00.000-07:00

hehe.. debbie help me do up this blog de.. nice nice nor.. blog skin is i chose de.. happy happy nor.. now can blog here le.. no need use friendster de blogger...^^